He

Is sitting an inch away from me, but it feels like we're miles apart. I love him, but these arguments hurt so much.

Its like a knife in my heart, but I can't be anything but angry.

Innocent lives

Destroyed in Connecticut today. 27 people who will never smile, laugh, or brighten the life of someone else again. 20 children who will never grow up, but none of them have gone off to Never Never Land with Peter Pan.

It disgusts me. How can a person - mentally ill or not - aim a gun at a child and pull the trigger?

It breaks my heart.

Just a shout-out

Not a lot going on in my life, just Army stuff. I'm going home for Christmas so that's good.  I can't wait to be back in Texas. I miss my family and my friends. I even miss my old high school.

Writers block initiate

I've been meaning to write, but I definitely have mass writers block sooooo.... I'll get to it at some point. In the meantime, if you have a question about the army or basic training feel free to ask.

About to make my blue phase phone call

Trainings going well, will do REAL update in 17 days (after graduation). <3

Finally finished

Just kidding, this is only the beginning. I have one day (and a half) to relax and enjoy myself. Then it's off to the world of Fort Jackson, where shit gets real.

No more RSP until I come back. That will be gold phase, and then I will go to my home unit in Austin for drill. As far as that goes, I'm still trying to figure out how I'm going to work it out. You'll know once I know (promise).

I just got the most amazing news of my life

This is drill weekend. Took the pt test today did okay, sat in a classroom and did paperwork, eh, mildly boring, then it was time for formation, and Blue Phase isn't doing pt tomorrow! #excitingg

(I know this isn't twitter, and I don't even tweet that much, I just like hashtags).

Although now that I think about it, sitting from 7am until chow is going to be a long wait.

In other news, my friend, Hannah (who shipped to bct almost a week ago), has been discharged due to a medical problem. Details aren't really my business, so I haven't asked, but she's expected to stay at Jackson for about two more weeks, so I may run into her, or maybe not, I'm not sure.

But in related news, I met the dumbest girl ever today (I'll explain the connection in a minute). She literally just enlisted, this was her first drill, and she was only there today. She leaves on Tuesday (the same day as me). I don't know her story, but she just tweaked every nerve every time she opened her mouth. She's not at all prepared for bct, but she gets to pack off to Fort Sill and have a whack at it.

But Hannah, who deserves to do this, who has worked her ass off to get a better mile time, getting up and running miles and miles while even I was still sleeping. She did everything she possibly could to get herself ready to kick ass and take names at Fort Jackson, but she has to turn around and go home. Not. Fair.

Also I hate fire ants. They make me itchyy. :(

And done guy tried to sell me this bearded dragon yesterday

Everything packed

Except for socks and a spare outfit. Bag's not too heavy, which is good. That's all.  Oh I decided to take a different bag, but I'm keeping the 12 dollar one because I like it.
This is a pic of a bag like the one I'm taking. It's not great quality, but you get the idea.

More later, good night.

Got the rest of myy stuff

That is all.

Except the maps, we never have maps at RSP so we can learn about land nav, and one of the cadre gets a little frustrated about it so I saw this at the dollar store and almost bought it but decided not to because it wouldn't be worth getting smoked for it.

UPDATED: I am on twitter

Follow me @devinni01841 or don't, it's whatever. For now I will refrain from Instagram... Sorry.

Plus Jenna Marbles is hilarious.

UPDATE : I swear I meant to say Jenny Lawson, the bloggess. I'm not sure where I got Jenna Marbles from when typing....