Friday, November 15, 2013

Zendala Dare!

So I decided to do something a little different today. I took a zendala challenge (#66 off of this particular website) I have been zentangling for the fun of it for a while, and I have always loved drawing and coloring mandalas. It only makes sense to combine the two.

For those of you who don't know, a ZENTANGLE is an abstract drawing that is supposed to have no proper up or down, left or right. You can look at it from any angle, and it's still a picture. That said, here are pictures of the one I did for this challenge.
Black and White, I pulled some inspiration from other people who had done the same challenge. The fish scale pattern is one of my all time favorites.

With color. Also you can see on the top of this pic - One of the Prismacolor markers I used (My favorite medium) and a Sharpie pen, and the corner of Allegiant, by Veronica Roth. New favorite series.(Divergent, Insurgent, Allegiant)
So I might do some more of these, or I might not, I like them, but I typically don't share my art with the general public, because I feel like it spills just a little too much of my soul.
Oh! and here's the link to the website where YOU can find and print Zendala Dare templates and join in the fun!

Sunday, November 3, 2013

Working the night shift.

So I'm tired as all hell right now.
I started working last night, and holy moly am I tired.
My shift is from 10 pm to 7 am and then I went to sleep at noon today. All this is really weird. 
That's all.

Friday, October 4, 2013

don't mind me this is just another note to self

so right now I am watching Halloween Night Frights on TV, and it's about all these seem park that has this crazy stuff going on at Halloween.
what is the talking about now is called scarywood it is up in northern northern Idaho and it's basically like a  giant zombie war.
this place is definitely on my list of places that I need to be for Halloween one year it is definitely on my road trip list.

and then there's Phantom Fright Night in Philadelphia or near Philadelphia that I want to go to.

the only problem with all these parks and their zombie things is I feel like I wouldn't be scared of the zombies I would just get a flashlight out and shine it on the zombie and be like "whoa dude that's a really cool prosthetic" and like poke at it.

Wednesday, October 2, 2013


This isn't really a real post. I'm just sitting here watching an infomercial for Insanity workouts.
I did them in phys ed class in high school, and I really liked it I lost weight pretty fast. It wasn't any like magical mystical snake oil program or anything its just a freaking work out I mean I lost about 5 pounds in 4 weeks and that's with probably 3 workouts a week. That's just one class period, a few times a week.
I really did like the program I've been thinking about getting it again. I'm super excited once I have the money freed up to get it done cause I really want to.
I mean I'm sitting here watching the infomercial and I really wish I had a hundred twenty dollars for it because I really really just want to get started I really want to do this.

So anyways, this isn't really a post, it's just kind of like a note to self.

Monday, September 30, 2013

No flag?

I am not usually one to point fingers, but I am certaknly not above gesturing in someone's general direction! :)

I was headed home from my morning bike ride today when I discovered that an establishment near the local gas station did not have a flag flying on its pole. The poor thing did not have a stitch of fabric on it!

I know it may not necessarily be any of my business, but I have made it my personal mission to make sure that this establishment get a flag for its pole. Because I have discovered I really hate naked flagpoles.

In fact, I have decided to wage a small war against naked flagpoles: the USO will send you a free flag with a donation of $30 or more, and I, paycheck permitting, want to donate in the name of, and send a flag to any company, group, or organization who needs a new or replacement flag.

If you know of an establishment like this, send me the name and address of the company, and a photo of the state of the flag, or the naked flagpole and I will do my best to get a flag to anyone that needs it at some point.

You can send this information to me via email at:
or you can donate and order your own flag here.
I look forward to your submissions!

Sunday, July 14, 2013

There are no words.

The world is a very dark place today, indeed.
Friday the lives of many people were rudely interrupted by a loud sharp knock at the door. Reality was calling. The Good Lord called two angels home after their vehicle was hit by another driver who ran a stop sign. Some reports say that police suspect alcohol was involved.
Here's one article.
Cruel and ironic as life is, the other driver -the one who was in the wrong- survives, leaving my cousin and her four year old son dead, her two year old daughter in the hospital, and her husband -not to mention her parents and other family members- reeling.
All I can say is that I hope this woman who is responsible for the death of my family members is held responsible to the fullest extent of the law. I hope that when she gets out of the hospital she does some good hard thinking about the consequences of bad decisions. Nothing she can say or do can ever change the fact that Nickie will never again post encouraging comments on my Facebook wall, calling me her "sweet cousin" or that little Lex is gone, and it will most certainly not change the fact that Zoe now must grow up without her mother. How do you explain that to a little kid? How do you tell your baby girl that Mommy is gone and not coming back?
"Life is short, so love the one you got."
If there's someone you've been meaning to call, do it. Do it right now, wake them up, bother them at work, interrupt whatever you have to up make sure they know that you love them. Hug people as close as you can, as often as you can. There is no time like right now to start rebuilding old bridges.
Life is fragile and precious. Cherish it, because it can change or be lost in a single heartbeat.

Saturday, May 11, 2013

I am beginning to understand myself

I just read this:
And while my ambivalence hasn't reached anything near the level of the writer here, I begin to understand the things that go through my mind on my low days, when nothing makes me happy.

Monday, April 1, 2013

Here we go again...

Same old shit again
Marchin' down the avenue
Too damn long til we'll be through.

It's gonna be a rough week for me, everyone. I don't really know how to explain it, just know that my man is at  a training exercise and there is a strict 'No Electronics' policy. I won't see or hear from him until Thursday after I get home from class. I'm not handling it well, and  reality is sinking in slowly and cruelly that in just one month, he will be leaving this place, and going home for HRAP (hometown recruiting). Shortly after that, he moves on to Germany.

The good news is that he has been talking about "dragging me with him" (in the army you can take your family with you if you go to certain places - that means marriage). Omygosh. But hey I've been thinking that this guy is the one for quite a while now.

That's all I've got for today, I'm trying to find a cute pair of shoes.... just looking, they make me happy. :)
peace out!

Sunday, February 17, 2013

It is 0027 hours

That's 27 minutes past midnight for all you civilians out there. I am sitting on cq (charge of quarters) duty for what will be 26 hours since Feb 2nd. I have another 4 hour shift tomorrow from 0400 to 0800, which I am also not looking forward to too much. But these shifts give me time to think about things. like.... just life. I'm currently working on reading a book called Life Without Limits by Nick Vujicic, a man born with no limbs, just a little stub of a foot where his left leg should be, and two toes on that little stub. Yet he lives almost normally.
Obviously there are some things that he probably has to get help with: opening jars, doors, that sort of thing, but the man has an unshakable faith in God's plan for him, and the biggest can-do attitude of anyone I've ever seen. I first came to know of him by way of a short film that I watched in a class called The Butterfly Circus  Vujicic (Voy-a-chich) played the role of Will, a young man who traveled with a circus as part of a freak show. but someone sees the potential in him, as a person, rather than as a source of income for a traveling sideshow that exploits people for their differences. My teacher then went to show the class a video of Vujicic's  and there are many, many more like it including this one  where he is featured on Oprah Winfrey's LifeClass, and this one which contains excerpts from the original video I saw.
This man has every reason (to the eye of another person) to be dissatisfied with the hand he has been dealt, but instead, he thanks God for the opportunities he's been given. I haven't even read a full chapter of his book, and I know that if I could meet any one person on this earth, it would be him. Be angry about what you don't have, or be grateful for what you do have. That is a powerful message. In the original video that I saw, he purposely falls over and speaks about how if you believe you can't do something, you are absolutely right, and how if you give up when you fall down, you will never get up he then shocks his audience by getting up with no assistance except from a book on the table. That image stays on my mind to this day.
I hope that there is someone out there, reading this blog, looking for some small sliver of a reason to look up, to smile, and to carry on. To keep trying is the bravest thing one can do when you want to give up.
Nick Vujicic is living proof of God's existence in this world. He is a miracle sent to show people that all they have to do is want something bad enough, to try one more time when they think it's impossible, and maybe, just maybe, that will be that last push they need to succeed. I hope that if anyone is looking for a little inspiration, they come across one of Vujicic's videos, because it is truly some amazing stuff.

Sunday, February 3, 2013

My Dumb Self

I am SO stupid.
Someone who lives in the room next door to me at the barracks asked if I could cover a CQ (Charge of Quarters - just means sitting at the front desk and being available to answer a phone... which, incidentally, is broken) shift for her tonight, so that she could go out. I ended up taking it. It was a four hour shift that lasted from 2000 hours to 2400 hours. About halfway through, the other soldier on CQ asked... "Who's supposed to relieve us?"
Me: Uhhhh I have no idea
Her: I know (insert name of one of my roommates here) was supposed to be on shift, but she traded...
Me: I'm usually on shift with her - awww fuck.
Yes, readers, I ended up getting an 8 hour duty because I don't remember things too well. I am a genius.
At least I will get recovery hours for this, and tomorrow is Sunday, so I can just sleep it off as much as I need to. Plus, I only have 2 hours left and I am only barely getting tired.
I'ma be ok.

But I did think it was rather rude of the gal whom I took the shift for to look at me like "it sucks to be you" when I told her the story of how I managed to wind up in this situation. I was just offering an entertaining story.

Also, eight people came into the company limping because they had been ice skating; another came back and told me that I should take life lessons from dogs. I was just like "go to bed (name of guy), you are drunk" Never thought I'd get to use that one on someone.

3/4 of my shift is over!

Friday, January 25, 2013


Is sitting an inch away from me, but it feels like we're miles apart. I love him, but these arguments hurt so much.

Its like a knife in my heart, but I can't be anything but angry.